Oooh Fuck.
Is there anything like “emotional cheating”? In that case, I think i’ve done it… Am I even allowed to cheat? Can I even call me and B a couple since we just became it yesterday, (still, for the fourth time in one year) does it mean I dont love him? Well, ofcourse I know I don’t love him but…
It was when I was talking to D-W. Ofcourse, he’s the one pulling the other side of my heart, and he made me jealous by saying “A cute girl just came in” (He’s working at the reception, and was on msn on cell). We started discussing and I said:
“Actually, D**** 
I like you, a lot.”
After that there was just tons of hearts and… I don’t know, is that cheating? Should I tell B? At least I’ve hold myself from physical cheating, I’ve always hated relationships. When I was with J-H it lasted week since I cheated with O-M, It was two years ago and I blame it on that I was young and stupid. But I get this… claustrophobic feeling to be someone elses. That’s why I haven’t got any long relationships in my bagage.
At least this is what i’m telling myself. If I dig deeper i’m sure i’ll find a more logic soulution that includes childhood and blablabla.
B just texted me and he’s at a friends house. Wow, he has friends. And I thought his life was just engines and working without social life. When he gets home, we’re gonna look for a sextoy. He was gonna send me one but apparently he regret it since I said i’d kill him if he did. Instead, we’re gonna pick one together today. Don’t know what I was thinking about when I said it to him, maybe captured by the moment? 
Boogie-Breaker. That’s the one he want me to buy, since “It sooooo alike his own”.
Wow, talk about ROMANTIC!
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